My compulsive liar
Just a warning to everyone out there. If you ever meet someone named
Lindsay Nichols... Know that she is a compulsive liar and not to be trusted. I think she really gets off on lying to people about the
STUPIDEST of things. Like that girl in Garden State, remember her? You can read more info on my personal blog:
http://noahk17.blogspot.comHope everyone is having a great week!!
My friend...
Wow... just wow...
[02:45] Mike Daniel: Ya know
[02:45] Mike Daniel: also...coming home.
[02:46] Mike Daniel: I saw a black man on my street...
[02:46] Mike Daniel: and thought..."Nigars cant afford these houses...."
[02:46] Mike Daniel: i got scared....
[02:46] Mike Daniel: after 5 minutes of sitting in my car lookin around for him.....
[02:46] Noah K 17: wow dude
[02:47] Mike Daniel: I rememberd theat they live across the street
[02:47] Mike Daniel: lol
My revival
The blog isn't dead, it just needs more posts! I, for one, like posting here on occasion, because no one I know in RL reads this. So I can talk shit about whomever I want. Ha!
What is up with me leaving the house for 30 minutes, then coming back to find the door
LOCKED. I mean seriously
David. Are you
THAT paranoid? We live in a safe neighborhood, no one is going to come into the house while you are watching TV. Ugh. That kind of pisses me off.
But other than that, I'm having a
FABULOUS day! The immature girl
Kelly (19) that I was dating finally returned my season 1 of Scrubs. I met a new girl
Lindsay (25) last night, and we're going out on Saturday, and I mailed off all my graduation announcements!
I graduate on
August 6th from Georgia State University with my Bachelor of Arts in Sociology. Oh yeah!! Now the tough part starts... finding a job. Ack!
Do you guys work for any good companies you can recommend for me? I would be looking for something in the South East US, particularly Atlanta, GA. Cheers!!
Oh my!
Blog dead? Seems kinda like it.
My decision
My mom is moving to Chicago at the end of this year. Which sucks, because I live in Atlanta now, and she lives in Savannah. I used to be able to visit her for a weekend, now I won't be able to. Grrr... So do I stay in Atlanta, or move elsewhere now that my Mom is nowhere near Georgia?
PS. Listening to the 2nd Xuqa podcast now. Celisse just came on! The inventor of Xuqalebrity. Woo-hoo!
LONG ramblings....
So I was in a particularly sappy mood tonight......and i went on a misson....i bought The Notebook...i absolutely love that movie.....it's so......so good... it's gotten me thinking about all of this love, life, and everything.... of course i bawled like an infant, but i needed that...i needed some true, raw emotion from deep inside myself...it's been awhile since i've just thought about things and tried to put things in perspective....
That movie gives me hope....even though it's a fictional story, I still like to believe that somehow, that kind of love is possible in this world.... That all encompassing, fire igniting, soul tingling, unconditional, undying, completely committed, gotta have you kind of love. The love that makes you feel alive....the kind that gives you a reason to get up in the morning....hell, it even makes you want the night to go by faster so you can be with that person again...Is it real? could it actually exist? i dont know....but i've always thought and hoped it does...maybe i'm just way too idealistic. I've always been a fairy tale girl...believed that one day, if i was patient enough-my prince, my true love would come find me, sweep me off of my feet.....rescue me from the emptiness...the loneliness.....he'd be my hero, my lover, my best friend....i'd have that amazing connection that's so deep words can't even express it. No word would be elaborate enough, rich enough.....
i mean am i just totally nuts? is it so wrong to want to find love? to be loved and to love someone else? is it so bad that i don't want to just waste my time and fool around with guys i have no interest in? is it so terrible that i dont just go out with whatever guy expresses interest (which isnt often, hahah) but that i'd rather wait, and go out with a guy i ACTUALLY think i could have a relationship with? is bad to want to find a guy to have a real relationship with? one with real feeling...real emotion.... one with movie moment surprises, and even the hurt involved in the arguments because you're just so passionate about eachother. I know i'm only 19, but maybe i'm an old soul, because that's all i truly want in life....to find my soulmate-if such things exist- to fall in love, with every wonderful minute of the falling process....the butterflies, the anxiousness of waiting to see him....growing into the comfortable stage....getting married...having kids...that's what i want in life. I dont want a career, i just want a family.
i'm afraid that i'm only becoming jaded with each passing day...losing that little bit of hope and faith that such things are possible......each week, each month...i grow more bitter....i become less trusting, less hopeful....the more i hear about people getting engaged....getting married....having babies....these people who are my age....i mean i dont want a baby now, heck no.....but i do want to have someone who is always there...who sees me for all that i am. the good, the bad, the crazy, the creative, the fun...all of it...all of it in one 5'3" package. sees me not only as that, but more. someone who wouldnt change a thing about me. someone who thinks i'm beautiful depsite whatever insecurites and flaws i have and see in myself... someone who wont intentionally hurt me. someone who won't become the kind of guys i've dealt with in the past....
and when friends are all coupled off....and i'm left alone...it only makes it worse. when "best friends" ditch me completely everytime they find some new guy that they like at that moment....it really sucks. Having friends parents (who are like your second parents) constantly asking you who your new flame is, where your boyfriend is...becuase all of the other kids you know are coupled....sucks. sitting there, knowing that you're the only one in a group of people who feels like you do... being the only one who longs so badly for that spark, that little jump from brushing his hand...the only one who wants that kind of thing...becuase the others already have found it.....
i really don't know what's worse honestly. The loneliness, the friends ditching me, the parents (and second parents) constantly giving me crap and asking why i dont have a boyfriend...my mom telling me that i run boys off..... or the hopelessness that comes with not being able to find anyone that i care for, who cares back....
basically this all sums up to i'm tired of being alone. I want to find love...or well, i want it to find me at least, haha. but i know that isnt gunna happen while i'm sitting on here whining at 3:45 in the morning. so i'm going to bed.... forgive me my ranting, love you guys.
Internship at Xuqa
Murtaza, Ali, and Prosper are looking for a few members who want to internship at Xuqa this summer. Airfare is provided throughout the internship, and in addition, you receive a 2,000 USD monthly stipend. You would travel around the country, starting in San Francisco, and ending up in New York City, helping the founders do whatever it is they do. (promoting the site, brainstorming new ideas, meetings with VCs, being the beer-bitch, setting up and executing the
"Xuqa Summer of Love
" program, etc.)
If you're interested, contact Murtaza directly at
Gmail. I'd do it myself, but alas, I am graduating at the end of the summer, and I still have 5 classes to finish. Cheers!
Startling realization
I recently realized something that I once never would have imagined possible. Kind of like when I used to be fat, and after I lost weight, the first time I realized I was actually skinny was at work when my boss called me a skinny college student while trying to get me to eat something (don't ask--my boss is a weird, weird man, but in a completely different way than I am weird). Anyway, the conclusion I just recently came to is that I have almost completely lost touch with what the mainstream public enjoys in its music. I know the generals of what most college students like (god awful jam bands for the most part), but the general public, I have completely lost touch with what they find listenable. I came to this conclusion when I was in the photo office while working at the campus newspaper. I had one of my new favorite albums, courtesy of Paul Ryu's music blog, playing. This album can be found
here if you're interested in downloading it from Paul. I highly encourage it.
Anyway, I was playing that album, and the other photo editor was sitting there. I had consciously picked it out because I knew the other photo editor was there, and I thought that it wasn't as weird as some of the stuff I listen to for something who isn't familiar with the type of music I listen to. But, she thought it was really weird, which must mean that I have no idea what the general public enjoys.
Now, this is both a good and a bad thing. It's good because in general, I hate the music that the general public enjoys. I mean, I'll be damned if I'm going to sit through and somehow enjoy Fall Out Boy, or whatever musical abortion is currently being force fed down the collective throat by some rich-as-fuck record label. It's also bad because I'm not that in touch with the indie scene either. The only bands I hear about that I like, I find through my roommates or friends or Paul. I am not connected with that scene to find my own music and hear about new bands as other people are hearing about them instead of two months after a friend heard about them. It's depressing. It's like I'm a man without a home.
Oh well, this is really overdramatic and pointless. I really just kind of felt like writing out my musical ramblings somewhere, and this blog could always use the proverbial syringe of adrenaline every few days when posts start slacking off. Thoughts and opinions?
CELEBRATE!
well, this has been pretty dead sooo...
MY NEICE WAS BORN! WOOOOO 7 pound red headed little girl named erin....funny fact...my
26 year old master degree holding psychology major (working on her Ph.D)sister kelly....thought the babys name was spelled aaron....she didnt realize that aaron/erin is gender specific.....how thats possible? noooo idea....but hey, my sister is awesome ...lol how i love her :)
my mom has now realized that her giving me shit for being single was really starting to bother me...so she elaborated today with "now i'm not trying to push you shannon...i mean, it's fine that you're picky...i'd rather you be that than...the...alternative" translation to momma's statement? 'i'd rather you end up a hermit than a whore'..... i love my mother as well *sigh* lol my family is nuts..and i wouldnt change a thing
annnnyway...time for me to do something other than this...sleep maybe? who knows....
!! pita !!
god i love pita bread. 'tis all. (i'm bored and procrastinating, if you couldn't tell)!!=)
